很讨厌
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为什么啊
星期五那时候,哇,一回家就立刻拿书出来读。读到很厉害。

星期六,哇。考试越来越近了,读书!!

星期日,啊,化学很难。很辛苦。救命,不过,不会放弃,读啊!

星期一。merdeka!!! 无端端没有兴趣读书。在家看恐怖片,发呆。X教授!读书啦!!!睡觉先才慢慢读。哈哈。。。无聊的我
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其实发生什么事儿?
不知道
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今年时间过得非常快
I still remember, when i first came back from Singapore, the next day is when I need to go for my national service training in Port Dickson Resort. On that day, 27th of December 2008, is the start of my tedious training.

When it was January, we were all begging to go home. For some of us who do not really miss their parents easily, felt the need to call them and talk to them. I was one of them. During the camp, we were talking about how SPM was, what we are planning to do next after NS as well as gossiping on 马来人. Haha. It was fun, although the atrocious training outweighs the fun most of the time. The time spent in NS was so darn long! 3 months actually felt like a year to some of us, especially me. It was that tiring! However, there are not much stress during NS, except that we need to make sure our attires are always clean and neat =(

Right now, it is already the end of August, approaching a brand new month, September. Most of us are already in college, doing A-levels, SAM, UEC or foundations in whatever. Time really flies, Ns seems like only 2 months ago! I can still remember all the things we had done there, all the memories I had gathered there while struggling against time. Right now, trials are already approaching. It's on the 14th of September, which means 17 days from today. That's... really fast, considering how we just started college and all.

伤心时候,开心时候,好笑时候和无聊时候,年年都会有的。不过,今年的不开心时候特别多。我觉得,我自己已经变了。我越来越无聊,越来越幼稚,越来越很容易生气,很容易烦。我还记得,今年,发生了一件事儿。我跟我朋友吵架,弄到我哭。然后我另外一个朋友安慰我。他跟我说,“为什么要对朋友那么认真?难道他们出了NS了还会叫我出去玩儿吗?难道他们还会叫我去看戏,去吃饭吗?机会是很低。因为,他们会认识新的朋友。所以,跟朋友一起,最好是不要那么认真,因为,我们都会分开,都会有自己要跑的路。” 我听他讲了以后,才发现,原来他讲的话是很有道理。虽然,很难接受他的想法,但是,现在,我已经明白了。有很多朋友,当然是一件好事儿,不过跟一个有很多朋友的人做很好朋友,绝对不是一件好事儿,因为,一个有很多朋友的人,是绝对不能每次跟你一起。那因为,他必须陪他的朋友们。现在最重要的事儿,是好好念书。现在的朋友,不需要那么认真,因为,我们还年轻。我绝对不会为了朋友而放弃将来。哈哈。其实,说了那么多,我还是对你们很认真。不过,你们对我认不认真,我真的不清楚。哈哈。上到大学,还会认识大叭人。所以,放心吧!
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明天开学了
明天又要上课了。物理还没做,还没读。很烦,最讨厌物理。
生物proposal终于做完了。应该是组作业,不过我一个人做。
很感谢一位人,虽然不是我的组,愿意帮我。
还有作业,也是一个组的。
不过,他们一点儿都没开始。
见天,临时跟我讲不能做,要我一个人做完。
我累了,我不想做,也一定不会做。
如果老师罚死的话,也不是太差。。因为我知道,不只我一个会中。
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好笑死
今天,做物理做到很烦。不会做。
然后,要休息那时候,不小心发现到,我弟弟跟我的cousin一起已经约定了要一起看半夜戏。
哈哈,没有跟我讲的。很坏咯,偷偷约会没有叫我一起。
所以,我就问我弟弟,“你跟他是不是有约会啊?guai ma 了你,没有叫我!几时要看啊?带我一起去吧!”
我弟弟就没有耐心立刻回答我 :哎呀。我们都没有叫你一起去。要看就自己去看饱你。现在你知道了我也不打算去。

原来,他们一路以来,是有约会的。哈哈。
真的很好笑。笑了整天。没有想到他的回答会那么好笑。
其实在家看电视机不好吗?又不用用钱,又舒服。
我才不会为了他们伤心。哈哈哈哈。

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Physics Final Project
SAM开始到现在,老师有给很多assignment。比如是,Investigative studies, human awareness essay, social relevance task, Malaysian studies project, information search 和 practical design proposal。全部都已经完成了。从来不会说,不会做,不懂怎么开始,不夠时间,只有怎么样才可以做得好!但是,虽然想了两天,这最后的物理assignment。。。我真的没办法,一定要讲出口这三句话。
1:我不會怎麼樣做!!!
2:我不懂怎麼開始!!!
3:我不夠時間做啊!!!
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Such words exist ma?
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Still learning chinese from my mother this week. Still so noob haha basic basic words also donno how to read.
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Nightmare
I woke up this morning crying. I had a nightmare. In the dream, you were dead from car accident. I still remember, Ms Isabel and Ms Prem were telling our class...that both of you were dead in a car accident. My heart immediately sank into a bottomless pit of sorrow, bursting into tears silently in my heart. And then, the whole class was quiet. I can see some girls crying, including joon hou. Me, at that moment, was trying to hold my tears from streaming. It's just way to sudden, how could you have died just like that? I've never experience a death of a friend before. It makes, no sense. When class was over, I went home immediately. I locked myself up in my room, and started crying... I had things I had not tell you yet, you just can't die like that, although I'm not close with both of you at all...
When I woke up, I realize it was just a dream. Not any normal dream that I would have... Honestly, even if a friend died, I don't think I'd cried that much. However, it seems that if it really happens, I might succumb to my feelings as well...

At 9 pm, I had another nightmare. This time it isn't a dream, it's real. I had just finished watching my favourite hong kong drama 原来爱上贼 , and went up to my room. While I was walking into my room, I spotted a big fat fugly shit cockroach 'smiling' at me on the door. It was just a few cms away from me. OMG, I terus shout FKKKKKKKKKKKKKK and fell down. My mum then opened her door, and asked what happened ah zai?! Then I told her, ga..ga...ga....ghajat!! She then took the mosquito spray and gave it a good shake before giving the cockroach some perfume. Haha, die you stupid fugly black shit. I saw it fell to the ground, and stared at it till it died. Lol, noob cockroach. And then I continued my studies... What a day...
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已经三天了
三天了了。一步都没有出过门口。
不算闷,不过孤单了十八年,已经习惯咯。
怪我自己为什么没有朋友。 :)
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无话可说
今天,不想说话。
今年头,前两年,都是这样。
讲多,错多。结果,得罪人。
从小到大,都是这样。难道,到了十八岁,还是一样吗?
今天,听到同学讲他们以前那么开心,那么多回忆。
我呢?一想到以前的事,就不想讲话了。
那,还算很普通,通常都会发生的。
不过,最近,冷冷了了?
一开始那时候,什么东西都一起做。
现在呢,只有我,一个人,跟你们有距离。
不说话,是最好的。不会得罪人,又不会浪费气。
还有,做好人,是绝对不会有好报的。
我感受过,我知道。
你们,最好是去做自己的事吧。
我,不理,不管,不想知道。
我,不想做好人了,从来不是个好人。
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New Favourite Korean Song lol
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要努力读书啦
成绩拿回来真的很差。已经知道了自己是不聪明,所以我一定要比聪明的人努力多十倍。。。
很后悔为什么中学那时候没有勤劳读书,到了SAM那么痛苦,什么都好像新的,没有学过那种感觉。
为什么在班上,我勤劳,他也是勤劳,成绩拿回时候那么大的分别?显。
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照顾脸
最近很烦啊。。。pimple 越来越多了。要努力洗脸。
Wei Chung, 你真麽样让到你的脸那么漂亮啊。。。

喂,最近,我发现到。你也是生了很多。。。
有可能是读书压力吗?以前没有那么多。。。
考试成绩不是太好也不用经啊,不要太伤心嘛。。。
有时发现到你很累,在桌子上睡觉。。。
你没事吗?
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驾车白痴
每次驾车后,一定会发生一件事。被人骂。为什么?因为我驾到很差咯。到现在还是驾到那么差。我真的没有驾车天分吗?刚刚也是一样,被爸爸骂。另我妈妈都不敢再教我。怕死。而且,教我驾车,分分钟可以失命。显。看来,不想驾了。。。我那么笨,教了一百次还是那么笨。
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Exam Results
Haiyo, what's wrong with my mid semester exam results. Study so hard also cannot get good results, I probably need to work EVEN harder. It's always never enough. So far I've gotten back chemistry biology and English.
Chemistry = 91/120 =76%
Biology = 100/135 = 74%
ESL = 50/70 = 71%

So far everything is 70+ 70+.

Chemistry i was so careless, whatever i calculated on my calculator i put a different answer on the answer script >.<>
For Bio...Ms Cheang is so ebuhl, so fussy and so mafan. Everything also can minus marks one, too strict, or maybe I'm just too unspecific.
English...Aih..Sien lan dao. My chinese so lauya already, now my English results also so teruk. From now on i should probably just speak Malay, wouldn't that be better?

Maths. When i asked Mr James,'Hey teacher, how many pass rates in our class?'
Mr James: Oh, so many failures. I won't give back your papers, you all will be depressed.
Shit....that's not good news.
Physisc, needless to say, I need to get at least 55/110 to pass, which is...NOT EASY OK!
Not sure if I can still be a scientist. >.<
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I don't like maths
Maths is getting so irritating. Everything is so confusing. The questions are so unclear, I had to think a hundred time before I can understand what the questions are asking. Sigh, am I really that pathetic and stupid? I can't even solve simple maths, while others can easily do specialist maths. >.<
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义气

昨天我看了一套戏,叫同事三分亲。在这戏里面,有一个男生叫 Kau Chun. 他真的很勇敢,很有义
气。他为了同事,朋友,愿意牺牲自己。不过,在这世界里面,会有这种人的吗?现代还会有人会
为了朋友牺牲吗?现在的人,又粗鲁,有没有礼貌。到现在,我还不相信,这世界是有那种会为朋
有牺牲的人。

Double posting in 1 hour interval -.- Just read, was it too late?
Well hopefully you do read this.
I think you are right, it was not pleasant to the eye when I read it again.
Deleted .
Sigh, never thought I would have removed it because of what you said.
I was being immature and ignorant, I thought of the consequences but I was still tempted to hit the 'Publish Post' button. Right now I'll try to answer all your questions.

Your first question in green.
No, I'm not saying that he has a face problem. I'm merely saying that the face he shows is as if he wants my whole family to die. Not to mention the way he treated someone he knew for less than 2 months. I'm not someone that judges a book by its cover. I would not cover the details, but that's about it.

Your second question on FT.
Indeed, I admit that what I did was outrageously wrong and silly, very immature to add. I regretted doing so. I was, extremely overwhelmed by questions on why FT did all these to me. I treated FT as a best friend and one day, all of a sudden, 'mou duen duen', for no major and massive reason, she had to completely ignore me. Yes, you would be saying, that's my problem, maybe there's something behind it, or the popular 'why don't you ask yourself first'. The thing is, I did nothing bad to her, in fact, I did so many things, trying to keep our friendship stable. Yet, just because I'm not treating others well, or she just couldn't stand me any more, she had to do this to me. An answer I obtained from them is : We rather you hate us. We started to notice, our relationship, is sustained not by friendship, yet by sympathy. Hopefully, we are not strangers after I said this, but we are not close friends any more. I don't think you would know how I feel, but just try imagining your best friends beside you saying this to you? Yes I know, I have problems, but I don't think I deserve something like this. It's unfair. Let's stop on this.

Your statement on the brown
When he posted that you have sex with WC on bed is ethical? Anyway fine, I wouldn't comment further. Sorry then.

Your statement on secondly
I'll forgive, and please do forgive me. And I think I know what's in the blank space. You ah....

Your statement on thirdly
Since when I ask people 'chan dei lam'?

Your statement on one more thing
Sorry, after all the drama-mama and papa, I don't think I want to have anything to do with E1 any more. I'm tired and sick, I'm aware of my mistakes and I know it wouldn't be a pleasant dinner with me there. I may be wrong and unfair, but it's an undeniable fact that you guys aren't fair as well. It's not fun being laughed at, looked at and left alone while others are chattering away happily okay? Sorry, but I'm purely dishearted not only from E1, but from exams too. Thanks for the invitation I really do appreciate and I'm afraid I don't know how to express a 7 months worth of apology, so sorry KK.

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想吻

能够得到足够的爱和吻到自己最爱的人,最亲爱的人,生活一定会幸福很多。
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NS 认识的朋友
刚刚去NS那时候,觉得很烦,不过,然后就觉得一点开心因为遇到那么多朋友。我的组是叫Alpha。那时候,虽然痛苦,但是有朋友的支持,我相信我能过到最后一天。我还记得,第一天,认识的朋友,是你们两个,S 和 A。我还记得 S 你那时候声音好像女孩子,很可爱。A,刚刚开始,每一天都是叫我‘好朋友’,不过,你真的是当我好朋友吗?这样为什么你要做那种事情对我?到了你做那种东西我才知道原来你是这种人。很后悔认识了你,A。
除了他们,我认识了三位朋友,名字 是 J 和 F 和 W。J 是一个很聪明的男生。考试每次考到那么好。F 呢就是我好朋友和华语老师。认识我的人会知道,今年刚刚开始那时候,我是根本不会讲,不会写华语的。多得你们我才会有今天的华语。W呢,可以算是我最好的朋友吧?我记得,我们刚刚认识那时候,你第一句话对我讲是,‘你的华语真的好像小孩子’。那天开始,我们做了个朋友。

有时我们会一起冲凉,一起睡觉,一起吃,一起坐在一起,一起讲废话,一起骂马来人,还有一起讲人是非。哈哈,想到就开心。不过,最后那三个礼拜是我一生人最痛苦最辛苦的。你无端端对我很冷,到现在还不多清楚,我到底做了什么错?到今天我还是很后悔,很烦,后悔为什么没有问清楚你这样对我的原因。虽然,现在我们已经回到家了,读自己要读的课,不过,难道你已经忘了发生什么事儿吗?已经很多次,我试要对你道歉,可是没有机会。所以,现在,我要认认真真跟你讲一句话,对不起。
S,是慧青和我的朋友。我还记得,我们一开始是好朋友啊,为什么会变成今时今日的地步?我知道,我是不应该在那么多人的面前骂马来人,是我太不会想了。最后那一天,我们吵了架。你骂我,我骂你。但是,到了今天,我知道是我错,我不会想,抱歉。
还有别的人,肥K,大头,鸟头,啊狗,小黑猪 ,美琪和明媚。很想你们我哦。今天就写到这里吧。
P.S. 我华语有今天那么不错,是多得你们了。今天写的字是你们辛辛苦苦教我这个笨蛋的。谢谢。
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SAM Biology
All of you must have thought that the biology in SAM would be harder than SPM no? But, after much research and observation, it is somehow proven that the biology in form 5 is much harder and detailed than the one in SAM. Wow, surprisingly, except for the DNA and some other parts, most of the chapters in form 5 are much detailed. For example, sexual reproduction [spermatogenesis and oogenesis], kidney, endocrine system and the HEART. Although it's an undeniable fact that some part of the SAM syllabus is more detailed, it cannot be denied that Form 5 biology is harder ._. Much harder. However, I noticed that many of the information in the form 5 reference book are wrong. What the heck are they teaching in chemistry and biology during secondary school?! Chemistry, for example, SiO2 is a semi-metal? No, it's a non-metal. Carbonic Acid ionizes completely in water to give 2 moles of proton? No, it's a weak acid, it's only able to give out 1 mole of proton. Another 1, group SEVENTEEN in the periodic table? Please, there are only 8 groups in the periodic table.

As for bio, although it isn't as obvious as chemistry, there is some false information as well in the form 5 book. Firstly, it says that bacteria and protozoans like paramecium and amoeba reproduces asexually by binary fission. However, it is NOT true, as ONLY prokaryotes like bacteria reproduce by binary fission. The reproduction of protozoans are called fission, just fission. Another false information can be detected in Chapter 5, Form 4, Cell Division. In between telophase 1 and prophase 2, NO NUCLEAR MEMBRANE is reformed. The form 5 book intelligently tells us that the nuclear membrane is reformed and broken down again. Right...
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Screamyx

Streamyx is starting to get very irritating and obnoxious. Since last Saturday, the DSL light had been blinking and blinking like crazy so frequently. For example, yesterday and today, it blinked for 8hours, and it managed to stable down for a few hours only. And now, while I’m actually typing this in Microsoft words, it’s still blinking. While typing this in rage and anger, I’m biting a croissant as my ‘breakfast’. What, it’s only 2.30 PM right now can’t I be eating my breakfast? I woke up quite late at about 1.50 PM for staying up late the other day, editing my chemistry and doing my biology proposal (while facebooking and chatting of course LOL).

So yeah, back to TmNet. I gave a 3rd call to TmNet earlier, complaining why it is still blinking like a dead desperate perverse bitch. All they gave me was, oh did you do a direct connection? Did you off your alarm system so you can get robbed in the middle of the night? And many other irrelevant question. Seriously, those people working in customer service level 1 have no idea on what they are blabbering about. They probably had a paper in front of them, vomiting out words from the paper whenever a customer calls. Now this is Telekom, this is Malaysia! They are just too lazy and undedicated. Forget it, I’m extremely pissed and frog-ed up already. I actually planned to change to P1 Wimax or Izzy, however hearing rumors and insults on these two brands, I decided to think it through twice.

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South Australian Matriculation
After spending about 1 hour in front of the computer, I finally managed to finish my biology proposal. Whew, it was kind of hard doing the procedures and finding out what the experiment actually wants. However, due to my witty brain, I actually managed to dig out very useful informational sources to aid me in my completion.

Next week is a horror. Common tests, practical exams, practical write ups, chemistry submission, chemistry proposal as well as biology proposal. Express March intake students for SAM, is what they call it. As the name implies, its fast and accelerated. I'm starting to feel the pressure and stress its putting on me. I've been studying constantly everyday and it's actually my habit to do so, however throwing and dumping everything in a week or two can be traumatic to me. A challenge it may be, but a huge sacrifice is definitely required for this challenge. Not like we have a choice to say no, this challenge is compulsory to all SAM students.

Now why did I actually take SAM? I've heard from friends that it's a crash course. I can get my pre-university cert and fly to Australia in just one year! In addition to the time saving part is of course with the fact that SAM is pretty hectic and 'crazy', let alone march intakes. It wasn't that stressful during the first few months, and I quickly assumed that it will be like this throughout the year. However, that's a huge misunderstanding and misconception. It's getting crazier by the day as it approaches to trials and finals. But after all, it's a challenge, and life is full of challenges. Passing this stage of life will provide and prepare me for the next stage of life. So the conclusion is, although it is difficult and tough, I will strive on and up to now, I did not regret taking SAM at all :)
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驾车
我前年,2008 四月多已经考到我的车牌。不过,到现在,还是很怕驾车。每一次看到车在马路就会觉得很怕。我爸爸和妈妈每次都鼓励我,叫我不要怕。但是,我还是很怕。为什么呢?我自己都不多清楚。我爸爸五号就要回来了。希望在三日里面他会教好我驾车。
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My First Post
So yeah, finally I made a blog.I had no idea why I actually made it, it's probably after doing the ESL exercise on blogging. I was told that a blog is a place where i can vent my anger and emotions, and it serves as a healthy form of stress release. So here I am, finally blogging, never expected to actually have my own blog.

So, firstly, today, August first, is a pretty boring day. I had class on a saturday, a replacement class for mathematics. Not very fun, as usual, however I'm glad Mr james actually took the effort and time to teach us on a weekend, and wow he's really casual today.

Today is kind of a boring day. My internet went down the whole day from morning until 6.30 PM. Furthermore, my phone was sent to repair, and I'm forced to use my mum's phone. Not only that, I was really really sleepy the whole day today, I basically did nothing at all besides sleeping, stoning around and rolling around on my bed. Now, finally, I had my internet back, or I wouldn't be writing here wouldn't I? In a nutshell, today is a really depressing and horryfying day. I'm suppose to study for at least 9hours today, that's my normal routine on saturday. But heck, i did not even open my book today. It's all because of stewpid streamyx. It disposed of all my mood on studying.

It's my first post, and I'm already being so long winded. However, to continue, I still have my biology proposal to do. My group basically pushed everything on me, expecting me to finish the whole thing by myself. Wow, that's pretty evil, but nevermind it's not my lost. At least i had finished my chemistry assignment about a month ago, I have plenty of time to do it.

Now, lastly, I've started to play Granado Espada again, just recently. I actually bought my account back using approximately RM 280? Hey, that's not even including the cost for weapons and armors okay. My fighter is finally master level right now, which is, great. Now that's left is my elementalist and my grace. Gosh, i really want my flintlock stance ._.

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