来,我写个‘服’字给你
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3months passed
At least, I had NS last year to consume my time,
but now I'm having 4 months of holidays ._.
Three of months of my holidays just passed,
and guess what?
I have another month of holidays!
It isn't funny at all,
having such a long break,
doing absolutely NOTHING at home.
Last year, I complained so much,
stuff such as :
1 : Too many assignments!!
2 : Have to study even during breaks!!
3 : Wake up at 5.30 am every morning!!
4 : Saturday and Sunday, need to study!!
5 : Exams every month!!
6 : I want a long rest!!

And the list can go on and on. Now that I think about it, it was more fun that way
4 months is just atrociously long. Can't believe I used to be exuberant and looked forward
towards the holidays.

Many many things had happened during the holidays. It is true that I did almost nothing,
but the truth is, many things did happen. It's so exasperating. I almost couldn't breath,
it's hard. There's always a first time for everything, and I know failure is the ladder to success[?]
But I'm not strong enough. It's too much for me to bear.
A quote from Teddie from Persona 4
"This is so beary teddie-ous!"
Yeah, very tedious! Not that I did not enjoy the fun times,
now that I think about it, it was really fun and enjoyable,
I wish we could maintain those days,
but God just loves to play and mess with our lives.

1 more month of holidays, how am I suppose to go through this?
I want to find a job, but me and my mum are lazy.
I want to study, I did, but it makes me think of you.
I want to just sleep and sleep, I did, but that's just boring.
I want to just eat and sleep and play, I did, for several days, it's stupid.
People are calling me babi and super pig. Lol. Not that I don't like it, haha.

想说,说不出。
想讲,讲不出。
想问,不敢问。
相见,不敢去。

看来,永永远远都不会再‘说讲问去’了,
祝福你。
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Poem

Robert Frost (1874–1963). Mountain Interval. 1920.
1. The Road Not Taken
TWO roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth; 5
Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same, 10
And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back. 15
I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference. 20

A very meaningful poem. The author faces a crossroad, and he has to CHOOSE which path to take. There is no way he could take BOTH the road. This is a resemblance to life. In life, we have to CHOOSE 1 from the 2. We cannot be greedy and naive to think that it is possible to travel both roads at the same time! A choice has to be made!! In life, there will be difficult decisions, but no matter what, a choice has to be made. Either you take the first path, the second path, or just leave the path.
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14th of February
Valentine's Day
First day of Chinese New Year
Our 4 month anniversary
How would I spend that day...?
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Offer Letter to University of Queensland
Dear Mr Pang
Unconditional Offer For Bachelor of Biotechnology (Taylor's College)
Congratulations on choosing to study at The University of Queensland. The University is pleased to offer you a place
in the following program:
Program: Bachelor of Biotechnology (Taylor's College)
Plan: Undeclared - SCI - Taylor's College
Program Duration: 8
Total Program Units: 64
Commencement: 01-MAR-2010
Completion: 25-NOV-2013
Faculty: Science
Campus: St Lucia

Yay!!!! Australia!!!
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To Young Warior Richard and Patrick
Two days ago I was so bored,
I checked all our chat logs,
It was from extremely long to really short,
Fun and exciting to monotonous and depressing,
And almost completely stopped this month.
I even checked the logs gor gave me,
It sounds like you were sincere to me but sextremely cruel to the other,
How could you?
You can't do that.
It's just wrong.
Sometimes you also need to think.
Things can change, attitude can change, character can change and also personality.
She told me, once we change, we could be easily torn apart by even the simplest argument.
I don't want that,
It's too cruel.
Besides, you've changed drastically.
All the claims and promises you made,
will never be fulfilled.
History repeats.
Whatever I do to other people,
it will befall me one day.
I don't really believe in karma but it looks like I have to.
Slowly, I'll let go.
Everything needs time.
Well it was fun and enjoyable.
Thanks for that.
Although it's hard to let go at first,
after a long period of pondering and wondering,
I've made up my mind.
It's the best way.
Don't worry I won't feel that way again.
Fun knowing you in college.

This message is dedicated to you, Young warrior Richard and Patrick!
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Scared
I'm really scared...
I'm so scared I couldn't sleep...
My chest hurts...
From all the coughing and sobbing...
Why am I so silly,
Why do I always choose the wrong words,
Wrong expression,
Wrong actions...?
Thinking back...
I'm really stupid...
We might be together again now...
But things are not the same...
I've done really stupid things...
No matter what I do,
I can never reverse what I did,
I committed grave mistakes,
And now...
I have to face the consequences,
Something that I deserve...
I now learn I must tolerate everything,
And not make a fuss out of everything,
But it's just too late,
Damage has been done...
And it could be permanent...
I'm so pathetic.
Cockroaches... aren't that scary after all...
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Can't sleep
It's 5.17 am now...
I can't sleep,
I kept thinking of what happened,
what was said,
and what was done....
I kept crying, and crying,
It really really hurts,
I've never felt this way before,
It really hurts,
It hurts so much....
So much I can die now..
I really can...
die...
I want to see you...
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Extreme Awkwardness
It's one of the most awkward moments in my life,
me and you were in the same car,
yet we didn't muttered a word,
we were walking together to the LRT station,
yet not a sound could be heard from our mouths,
we were waiting for the bus,
and you sat far away from me,
we were finally riding the bus,
yet you kept your distance from me.
we reached my college,
all you did was ask me to hurry up,
I finished my application,
and you just said go home now,
we took the same bus again,
and now the distance between our seats are even further,
until we reach our destination,
we are still silent,
and finally in the car,
you asked,
I'll get you kampung fried rice for lunch.

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