What do I think?

Simple Introduction
Eugenics, commonly known as the practice of removing undesired alleles from the human population is something that gives rise to ethical issues. This idea of perfecting the gene pool of humans was widely popular in the early 20th century, but was rejected and disfavoured after being abused by the Nazi. What the Nazi did was dreadful. Experimental studies on humans were conducted, harsh and forced racial hygiene were reinforced as well as extermination of a population of humans with undesired alleles. In simple terms, reproduction of a group of people with advantageous alleles is strongly encouraged while the reproduction of a group with deleterious or not so favourable alleles is persecuted. In a biological perspective, eugenics is also detrimental to the survival of the human species. Charles Darwin, a great naturalist that discovered and theorized natural selection states that in a population, genetic variability is definitely a must for the survival of a certain population. Without variation, a single calamity or a plague could easily wipe out the entire population of that particular species, totally eliminating the species' gene pool. By practising eugenics, there would be less and less genetic variation in the human population. Consequently, humans will be much more susceptible to new diseases and catastrophes.

You might be wondering why that happens. It's pretty simple. Some alleles could be deleterious in a certain environment. However, in a totally novel or different environment, it could be essential for the survival of that particular species. A classic example would be, the sickle-cell anaemia. A very common disease, I'm sure you people would have heard about it. This disease is an inherited genetic disease where the red blood cells are sickle-shaped (not all but some). As a result, you would expect that the rate of oxygen transport will decrease due to these non functional red blood cells. It is therefore easy to rule out that this condition is detrimental to the health and bears no benefits to the person. Despite that, this allele could be proven useful predominantly in Africa. In Africa, Anopheles mosquito carries a certain parasite in their saliva called Plasmodium. Plasmodium uses the mosquito as a vector to infect humans, causing them the infamous 'Malaria'. Plasmodium is a protist parasite that attacks mainly on the red blood cells. They infect the red blood cells, reproduce inside the red blood cells and finally lyses out of the cell, infecting more and more red blood cells. As a result, it causes sudden shivers and chills to the affected person. The semi-detailed life-cycle of Plasmodium is summarised in the diagram below. Since red blood cells are essential for the reproduction of this parasite, an anomaly in the red blood cells would deter the growth and reproduction of Plasmodium. Therefore, the survivability of people with the sickle-cell allele is much higher compared to healthy people without this allele in places with high occurrence of Malaria.
Fig. 1 - Diagram depicting the life-cycle of Plasmodium
Diagram taken from Campbell et al. 2008

Warning: For the following part, read only if you are prepared to get pissed from my childish and retarded ranting. It's very annoying, so only read if you want to annoy yourself.

What do I think about eugenics? (I'm ranting!!)
In my very selfish opinion, eugenics is okay. So what if bad alleles were removed? So what if people with gene defects gets persecuted? I don't give a flying Lulz. In fact, that would be better. It halts production of abominable failures such as me! So what if having less variation will cause humans to be vulnerable to selective pressures? One die, all die la. Mati sama-sama. Why aren't designer babies allowed or widely used in Malaysia? Because of ethical issues? You critics think that it is wrong to disrupt nature by altering genes? You noobcakes think that doing so will anger God and stuff? Well, fuck you. God doesn't exist. If God does exist with his hands directly on Earth, Earth would be a much better place. There wouldn't be so much suffering. If you truly are fair and square and cubical, why isn't your love distributed evenly? Why is it distributed like a normal curve, where some people gets shit luck, some with average luck and some super lucky and fortunate. Why? Reason? To laugh at us unfortunate ones? Never mind. I'm just ranting. I'm pissed. I'm terribly depressed. Why do I have to live in misery. Why in the flying lulz do I have to suffer from so many shit. WHY?! I don't feel human at all! I know what you people are thinking. "This boy doesn't appreciate what he has. Look at Africa, people are dying everyday, having not enough food to eat. And yet, this boy is complaining about his life". You know what? I don't give a flying crap about who's dying or who's not having enough food to eat. I'm just RANTING HERE!! I HATE MYSELF! FML!! I WANNA JUST DIE OFF!!! I can't even find anyone to talk to about this, not that I'm willing to talk about it at all to anyone...

God doesn't exist. If he/she/it exist, he/she/it is an asshole. My life sucks, terribly. I wish I can decide my own genes, or at least get my genes altered before I was born, or even not get born at all.

P.S. Don't flame me or preach me after this. Like I said, I'm just ranting.


Allele - Variation in a gene that codes for a certain trait
Gene Pool - Sum of all alleles of all individuals in a population
Protist - Unicellular organisms with a nucleus
Phenotype - The physical manifestation of the organisms genetic make-up
Natural Selection - A change in environment that favours a particular phenotype

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Magical Tree Product

Money makes the world go round. One good example is Taylor's University College. It's making tons of money. So why's money so important? Some critics might say stuff such as "money can't buy you happiness". My reply to that statement is, you people don't have a brain (I'm already being very very polite). It's true that money can't bring you ALL types of happiness in the world, but it can certainly bring you MOST of the happiness in the world. Without money, can you be healthy? Without these magical tree products, is it possible for you to get married? To support your kids? To financially support your loved ones? To buy and pamper yourself and your loved ones? No, it's impossible. Do bear in mind that I'm not implying you should have 10 million $USD in your bank to be considered as having money. Back to the topic, why the sudden inspiration to talk about money?

Firstly, money can buy you health. Yes, it's true. Although not in all cases, but in most cases. For example, I'm having health problems. It's been a year now. I can't seem to at all rest properly. I'm terribly ill and mentally screwed up, and this is seriously killing me, especially this month, the peak of despair. Of course I went to a general doctor. Unfortunately, after having my blood, my urine and my whatever analysed and tested out, everything was negative. My blood sugar level, sodium level, potassium level and whatever that's essential are all perfectly normal. Nothing's wrong. But I'm very very sure, SOMETHING IS TERRIBLY AND ATROCIOUSLY WRONG! I've thought of going to a specialist, but I don't have the money. SEE! Money is really important! Without money, you can't even see a more luxurious version of a doctor. So I've been trying hard by taking in natural remedies, and hopefully it'll help. IF it doesn't, then yeah I'll have to see them this time. Right now, I doubt I can even involve myself in any simple sexual activities any more. Not that I have them a lot. Sex life ruined. See? That's the effect of lack of money. (Please don't ask me what problems I have, there's a reason why I'm not stating it here. It's not STD or any sexually related diseases, just so you know).

Secondly, without money, I can't visit 'there' or come back to Malaysia during my winter holidays to meet up with that person. That's just sad, because of such financial problems I couldn't visit my friends and that person during the winter break. Sigh, another point to reinforce that lack of money can deprive you of happiness.

Thirdly, without money I can't even get the stuff I want. For example, my phone. He doesn't want it any more. Now I'm stuck with it. I was so happy when I thought I could finally get another one that I like. Usually, I'll just go, OK nevermind. But this time, with everything and every shit accumulating and summing up, I couldn't help it but cry. I'm breaking apart. I feel like the world is against me, especially this month. ARGH!! What the BFH is happening?!

So in conclusion, money is important. Very important. Not more important than health and love, but without an adequate amount of money (not saying you should be a millionaire) it's hard to be VERY happy. At least it applies to me. You might have a different view and I totally respect that. On a side note, I'm writing this based on MY opinions and MY experiences. If you have a different point of view and would like to have a debate with me, feel free to let me know, and I'll make myself free to punch your face.
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September : Month of Total Despair
There's 4 things that's really bothering me this month.
For you people out there reading my blog, it's time to listen to my rants about my life again. =)

1 : As busy as hell.
It's been crazy this September. There's a huge BIOHORIZON project to do, and my group and I are suppose
to write an essay on neurodegeneration diseases, including power point slides and having an econference on the forums! The deadline is so near, and I'm having troubles writing it. We'll finish it up on time either way, it's just that the process of doing it is really stressful and exasperating.

Asides from that, we have this IS-IT Chemistry Research Task. It's almost like BIOHORIZON, just that it is on chemistry. And the deadline is the same as BIOHORIZON! I've barely started on it because everyone's so busy holidaying or doing their BIOHORIZON. Well, same goes to me.. I tend to ignore this first for BIO >.<"

Thirdly, there's a Physics mid semester exam right after holidays. Talking about WTF?! Another thing happening?! I didn't study at all ever since the beginning of the semester, there's no way I can fit Physics into my head with all the other tasks on hand! I'm as good as GG-fied!

To continue, Quiz 2 for Chemistry is OUT! Deadline's somewhere around 7th of October. Yeah, that may seem like a longggggg time for us to do, but again, with all the other assignments, I doubt it'll be easy. (Covers fully on 3 modules. Wait, we're not even done with module 2. Oh great!)

2 : Preparation to UQ

So yeap. Preparations! There's so many things I have to do, my father's been pushing me into doing them such as applying a visa, getting to know what kind of clothings I can bring, money, accommodation, passport, friends and stuff. Oh, and my air ticket is already pre-booked by Taylor's! Wow, efficient betul. We'll be going in a group, so yay! And to brag, for biotech students our first semester is completely, absolutely, sexually free!! It's only the living expenses that I should be worried about... But again, wo0t! (Biomed students get to go through 2 semesters for free though, jealous much)

3 : I still miss a certain someone

I know I know. It's silly. I'm suppose to let go and concentrate on my stuff. But I just can't help it. Like you said, it's my trait. I'm trying my best not to think of it though. But I really do miss you. So much =/ I really wish I can meet you at least once in a year during our holidays.. (Which is pretty much not likely since our summer breaks are totally antagonistic). Wishful thinking. Still. I'm not going to say much here, I believe I've expressed myself a lot in many other ways possible ha ha. Anyways... I wish you're happy there. You'll make friends, dummy. And maybe hopefully find someone you love... =)

4 : Stupidest Decision

I bought a new phone. Yay new touch screen phone, that's what I thought. But no, I'm just not used to it at all. The more I use it, the more sad I get and the more pissed I get. I mean, it's a 100% entertainment phone. Features include
a : Imba camera
b : Imba music
c : 8GB memory card
d : and etc
e : I bought it LESS THAN A WEEK!!

Ever since I bought it, I've never used the camera much, did not listen to music much and did not do much at all with the phone asides from texting and calling (Which is ALSO RARE). Thus, it's making me sad. Weird right? So I talked to my classmate HM. He seems to like the phone, he seems to like the camera and the music functions. So yay, I'm selling it to him, RM200 less than the original price. And SINCE he kept on screwing his earphones, I decided to add in an additional ear phone which costs RM80. All in all, I lost RM280! But it's okay, it's a lesson for me to not be such a retard to anyhow buy a phone with features I don't use much.

The hardest part was of course, to TELL my mum. It took me so much courage to go to her and start a conversation. I first went,
Me : Hey mum, ermm...
Mum : What? You hungry?
Me : Oh yeah! Of course.
Mum : Alright I'll make dinner. (Walks down to the kitchen)
Me : (Follows her down) Uhmm, mum, actually... the phone...
Mum : What about it?
Me : I think I don't like it... the more I use it.. the more I get sad.. I just can't get used to it...
Mum : (Shocked face as if I killed a cat) OMG, you're just plain weird, how come?!
Me : Well... I don't use the features much you see... and I'm not used to it. It's like wasting the phone.. I should get something with features that I can use.
Mum : What to do with your phone?
Me : I sold it to a classmate for RM200 less than the original price... (Put my hand in my pocket and took out RM200). Here, take it. It's my fault, thus it's my responsibility.
Mum : Nah it's okay. Just keep it. Just make sure your next phone is something you REALLLLLLYYYYYYY like! You should test it out first before you buy.
Me : Okay... but please do take the RM200. At least I won't feel so guilty.
Mum : Ok ok.

Whew. This time I REALLLLLLYYY should make sure I like that phone before I purchase it!
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What should I do?
What should I do?
It's the last chance I have, my last opportunity.
I don't know, whether to be aggressive or just let whatever is suppose to happen occur effortlessly.
If I am bold enough to tell that person, I might get hurt so bad in return.
If I am brave enough to tell that other person, I might seriously be an asshole and stir up an unnecessary scene.
If I am to do nothing, I will just hurt myself.
If I were to do something without telling anything, again I'll be an asshole.
Either way, I'll hurt myself.
I don't know any more...
I guess I'll rather hurt myself than cause an entropy.
It's a decision that I'll definitely regret in the future, but it's for your good.
Don't want to sound so emotional, so I'll stop here lol. =) =)

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Future Regrettable Current Silence

I am seriously at the brink of collapsing now.
There's so many things I want to do well in, but I just can't seem to.
Nowadays, I'm just so exhausted by everything around me,
from this to that, from that to this.
From the inside out, outside in, sideways and wayside I'm feeling tired.

Firstly, it's about my uni stuff.
Had you studied like crazy and stayed up all night just to finish a quiz and got fucked by it and the next day the whole class copies your hard word and gets full marks in front of your face?
Well, it happened to me. It's a terrible sight to see, and I felt like dying. But oh well, at a brighter side, the class benefits from it.
On a side note, I almost died from chemistry practical today. T_T

There's something I really want to tell you on your face,
but I can't do that.
I'm not allowed to. Nobody lets me. Furthermore, I do not have the right,
or the privilege to do so.

To be frank, I don't really understand any of you. And now it's your turn. You can be nice sometimes,
you can be harsh sometimes and you can be really sweet sometimes.
What gives? Which one are you predominant in? My heart is fragile, I can't
withstand such changes in such a short time. I feel weak and devastated every time
you give me such responses and answers. I really wanted to tell you, but I just can't
seem to forge the right words out of my trap hole. I'm terribly lost and confined in a state of confusion. What do you want from me? What can I do for you?

In fact, I'm still quite disturbed by the events that occurred these days. Whatever you said, whatever you denied, whatever you tried to confess or whatever you tried to hide, I really couldn't understand any more to the point that I want to bang my head on the wall. I want to understand, and I want to know why, but overtly that's out of my grasp. You wouldn't. Not that I tried to inquire it from you directly, but knowing you, you'll just come up with something. Besides, that'll add to awkwardness, wouldn't it? That made me wondered, whatever that happened that night, that very night. Were they my dreams, my imaginations and my fantasies? They seemed real to be, but the after reality of it doesn't seem to support the fact that it really happened. Maybe, it's just the CH3CH2OH. You know, this shit always fucks people up. Although I always tried not to give a flying fuck any more, I just can't because I care for you =/

Well, enough about that. I'm sure what goes next is, hey you're emo-ing again. Can't you get rid of that trait? Well, everyone emos from time to time right? It's just a matter of how well you hide it (I think I plagiarised this phrase from someone). So yeah, I heeded that advice and did. I suppressed it to a fair degree. It wasn't easy, but that's better than making everyone around you gloomy, correct? That being said, this is my world and my space. It's one of the places where I can express what I want to express (although my emotions, described in words here are much suppressed to an extent). So don't go around calling me emo unless I exhibit emoism in your presence. =)

In principle, what I would like to conclude from all these mess of words is I really really want to tell you this!
Fatty. . . the fact is . . . I this that person and that person this this, so can you please don't this that and that this and this us. Thanks.
But sigh no, that can never come out from my mouth. Never.
Fuck. The thing is... who am I to utter this kind of shit to you?

Time to buy a gift for someone and mentally prepare myself for the upcoming ordeal.
I feel MUCH MUCH better now that I let it out. =)
And million thanks to my friend that spent so much time listening to my rants and complaints.
Thanks a lot. xD

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