The First Time
Warning: It’s all about me and that person
After eating my lunch and spending some time doing my revision, it rained. The smell of the rain reminded me of how we first met. I was on my way back from university that day and have just arrived at the LRT station. It was drizzling. Feeling a bit bored, I took out my phone and went to facebook zero. The first thing that caught my mind was a facebook msg from some random unknown with a really unique name. It is facebook zero so I couldn’t see your face but what I thought was that you were really polite and seems fun to talk to. Being really interested in you, the first thing I did when I reached home was to check how you look like and who you really are. Apparently, you do look kinda cute haha but unfortunately I was attached. No harms making more friends though. From that day on, we started chatting on msn every day, talking about random stuffs and about ourselves.
Those days were really memorable. The time we’ve spent together on msn before we actually met up was as precious as diamond. No words could describe how contented I was just by talking to you. I still remember you wanted to kidnap me and you openly asked for my handphone number. I willingly gave it to you though haha =)
On our very first date we were suppose to have buffet in an awesome restaurant but apparently the shop ‘zap lap-ed’ lols! And we actually went all the way to puchong just to eat in that place. In the end we ate noodles in some random restaurant but it was still awesome =) I still remember offering you my food. The look on your face was really priceless xD
After eating we went and kia kia around my housing area and ended up chatting in the park outside my house. We talked about so many things and do you still remember how I got freaked out by the bug? Haha. It was really fun talking to you. We click so well. The date ended with us hugging, me putting my head on your shoulder and you ‘forcefully’ kissing me. Thinking back really makes me happy. We’ve spent such a great deal of precious time together. I doubt there’s anyone in this world that is capable of giving me the same feeling anymore.
I know I’ve been writing a lot about you lately but I just couldn’t help it when you are so addictive and enthralling. I promise that I’ll always be there for you no matter what and I want you to know that our meeting is fated! Being together is our destiny. Everyone that’s reading my blog (which I know is extremely minimal), please be my witness.
That’d be all about you for now. A hundred posts wouldn’t even be enough for me to write if I go on and on about you. I wouldn’t want to scare people away =)
I’ve not blogged for a very long time and somehow my writing in English has deteriorated. Do pardon me if I have mistakes and silly errors. It’s been awhile.. School has started and lots of stuff had been happening in my life. I really wanted to write them all down but I just don’t have the time and privilege to do so. I’ll probably write on how I came here, how was the condition here and on my house/room. For now, I’m doing fine. I’m eating fine and am surviving pretty well, staying with my classmates. They may not be the best housemates in the world, but they are stay-able with at least. A lot has happened. A lot, seriously. The same thing kept on repeating itself. Shall I talk about it? Or should I not? Maybe I should, it is my blog after all.
“Whole chunk removed because it was nonsense I wrote 2 weeks ago”
Let’s talk about something else.
What exactly is love? Some may say it is the unselfish act of giving someone you love everything and hoping for that person to be happy. Some may argue that love is a mutual affection between individuals. There are many kinds of love but do take note that I am strictly referring to the guy-girl/guy-guy/girl-girl love here. Let’s start with some background story before going into the main topic.
Case 1: It happened about… 3 years ago. My friend has a girlfriend (and is still now). He’s a very nice person and he can do a lot for his girlfriend from doing crazy stuffs for her to buying her crazy stuffs. He even fought with his parents just for that girl. Well, it is not as if money is everything in a relationship and it shouldn’t be weighted on how expensive the presents are but he did fight with his parents for that girl. And he was only 17?! I used to think that he was really stupid and dumb. Why do so much for a girl? Why sacrifice so many things for someone you just met for a few months? Why are you soiling your relationship with your parents just for someone you met few months ago? It’s seriously stupid, and I kinda lost my respect to him after knowing this. But, that was because I do not really understand what LOVE is (not that I really understand it now). Now that I think about it, it is still quite silly but love is definitely blind. You do shits for the person you really love and care for.
Case 2: Another story on how love can change a person. During my pre-university program, I had this really awesome chemistry teacher. She’s young, pretty, kind and extremely intelligent. One day during tutorial, I decided to talk to her because I was really bored and she seemed to be bored as well. I asked her where did she graduate from and she told me she was from NUS. She also worked there for a year in a college teaching the biotechnology program. The conversation is as follows (to the best of my memory):
Me : You worked in Singapore for a year? Why are you here now in taylors teaching chemistry?
Teacher : Well, I did it for a man.
Me : Wow really? How come? Isn’t the salary in SG much higher than the salary in Malaysia?
Teacher : Of course. The salary is so much higher. But I think that my husband is more important and money isn’t really everything.
Me : I see. Your husband must be really lucky. So, why are you able to teach in taylors without a masters degree? All the other lecturers have a masters degree.
Teacher : Well, I actually had full scholarship to do PhD in NUS but I rejected it. I won’t have time for my husband and my family if I were to take a post-grad program. I guess taylors is still keeping me because of my first class honors but they are still pestering me to take masters. I won’t though even if it means losing my job because I think my husband and baby are more important.
Me : Wow okay.. (WTF you serious? Throwing away a good future in NUS and afull scholarship to do PhD for a guy… that is NOT handsome? (in my opinion)).
Honestly that was what I was thinking after the conversation. How can she give up such awesome offers for a guy? Is she kidding me? She is so young and pretty. I’m sure she’ll find a more handsome guy?
Case 3: “Love is very mysterious. You never know that such a person existed until you meet them. You fall deeper in love with him, but with just the smallest of words from him, you can be sad or happy. Just thinking about him makes your heart ache. Why..? Why? Why do we fall in love?” Ever heard of this quote? Sounds familiar? It is actually from episode 13 of Mai-Otome. Akane-chan is willing to give up on her dreams that she had worked so hard on since she was born. In fact, her dream itself defines her existence. But for a guy she loved so much, she is willing to give up everything including her life for him as depicted in the scene where she shielded him from that “slave”. In the end, the guy (a royalty) gave up his country and his family just to be with her. Wow.. I was really moved after watching this episode and couldn’t help it but writeit here. “Give up the dreams and live for love. That’s a path one can take as well” – Major Sergay Wang
Akane and Kazu
Akane protecting kazu kun with her life
Perfectly Wonderful Ending
But now that I am kinda in their shoes, I totally understand how they feel. Money and an awesome career isn’t actually the most important thing in life. It is the people around you that matters. I wouldn’t say money isn’t one of the most important thing in the world (in fact I think money is super ultra important) but I have to admit that the person that you care and love most is the most important thing. Money and career, it really doesn’t matter too much anymore if it is to be able to be with the person you love. I’m probably saying this because I may not be the very dominant one but still, it takes a lot to make me do so much or give up so much for a single person.
Many may say, ‘Loving someone doesn’t necessarily mean you have to be with that person, you should be happy as long as the person you love is happy’. In a way, it sounds really romantic. But the fact is you won’t be able to do that unless if you are a saint. You won’t be happy if the person you really love is with someone else. Yes you may be happy for that person, but it is really harsh on yourself.
What I can say is that I am terribly sorry for not being able to be with you when you need me most. LDRs are always tough and it’s not something that survives easily from what I can see from history. But I believe, if two people are really in love, something like distance wouldn’t be able to tear them apart. I love you hunny and I will do everything to the best of my abilities to be with you. The definition of love in me now, is you and me.
I just had a discussion with someone regarding ethical issues on animal consumption. Perhaps that person might be cursing and writing something atrocious about me on his blog right now but we shall put that aside. There is something more pressing that I have to explain and write out. Do note that the content might be a little too extreme for extremeenvironmentalist and people that cannot think logically or accept a different idea (In short stubborn people). If you seriously seriously die die cannot accept dog and cat consumption or even bear to read about it, I suggest you don’t read on. It’ll just make me your enemy.
So yes, rather than an argument it is more like a polite debate. Yes, very polite with occasional F words in it. At least, I was polite. So there’s this person talking about how it is bad stuff to eat shark fin soup as they are already endangered. I have to completely agree with him regarding this matter as it is a very serious issue. People are catching sharks just for their fins. After removing their fins from the chondrichthyes they are tossed back into sea, unable to swim and hunt for food. That is worst THAN murder. How could they torture such poor animals? Other animals such as sea cucumber and sea urchins should also be consumed less. You might not know the significance of these animals but they are really important in the aquatic ecosystem. Let me give you a brief explanation.
The next paragraph is mumbo-jumbo. Read only if it really piques your interest.
Sea urchins are grazers that reduce the amount of algae on coral reefs. As some of you might already know, coral reefs are extremely important in the aquatic ecosystem as they provide extensive services to algae, protists and other fishes. Algae (to be more precise it is protist but for the convenience of non-science people I shall call it algae) such as Zooxanthellae provides food and growth assistance to corals in return for waste substances that are beneficial to the algae such as sulphur and nitrogen in this symbiotic relationship. Grazers such as sea urchins reduce the amount of zooxanthellae on the surface of the coral by eating them to ensure that the coral is not overtaken by these algae. Imagine if all the sea urchins are dead. Zooxanthellae will take over the coral population and this irreversible condition is termed as the ‘algae shift’. Corals will be destroyed and fishes would not be able breed. Sea cucumbers on the other hand are bioturbators. They soften the soil, aerate the soil and disperse nutrients. (I would seriously love to talk about how the fish industry is going to collapse and about the Allee effect but it is too mumbo-jumbo so just google it if you are interested). For this I have to agree with that person but the main point isn’t on sharks and echinoderms now.
And that person got so pissed and mad because he cannot accept. Why laaaa? Different people got different opinion ma. Don’t need to attack me first. Anyway let’s focus on the issue.
Culture and Tradition
What makes it wrong to eat cats and dogs but it is perfectly fine to eat chicken, cows and goats. Indeed many people would say that it is inhumane to eat dogs and cats due to the fact that they are human’s best friends or pets. But to say that, it is an obvious display of speciesm (Macam racism la). In our culture, it is true that we have emotional attachments to them as pets, friends or even family. However, what about other cultures and traditions? Does it not apply on dogs and cats? Just because the majority of human beings find dogs and cats more lovable than chickens and cows does not mean that it is inhumane to eat them.
What’s happening in the world now is that humans are making a whole lot of fuss on dogs and cats consumption BECAUSE they are pets and they are cute! However, chickens and cows are ALSO pets and they could be close to humans or even closer than a dog or a cat. It is very subjective. Just because most people find dogs and cats more appealing they are making a move to STOP their consumption. Okay. Sure. What the fuck?! Are you FUCKING ME?! I apologize for the vulgarity but, what kind of reasoning is that? So let’s say I have chickens as pets. I find them extremely cute and warm, enough to make me jizz. Can I form a group with chicken lovers and make a move to STOP people from eating chicken? No, am I right? Let’s talk about Hindus. Their cows are sacred. They are like their Gods. And, we are eating them like nobody’s business. Burger lembu, steak, curry beef and whatever you can think off. Is it okay for them to STOP us from eating beef? Well, perhaps dogs and cats are our friends, but cows are the Hindu’s Fluxxing GOD! You are eating their GOD! Are they making a big fuss??! Are you willing to stop eating? Seriously, you people (including me) couldn’t care less and eat them regardless. Are we inhumane then? We are eating Gods. And you people are making such a fuss when people are eating dogs? ROFLMFAO!
Firstly, just ask yourself this question. What makes it okay to eat cows, chickens and fish, but not dogs and cats? Yes dogs and cats are pets, but cows can’t be pets? Fishes are pets too. Many of my friends have fishes at home. So cannot eat fish edi izzits? Don’t give me the excuse that dogs are cute, friendly and nice unlike cows and fishes that are fated to be slaughtered and eaten. If you think that way, you just pawned yourself. You are basically classifying animals and that is unethical. This, we shall talk in the next section. And before I move on to the next section, if you respect other people’s culture, stop condemning dog consumption unless if it is a valid issue. I do respect your opinion and your reluctancy to eat dogs and cats because I am the same. I find dogs too cute for ME to eat.
Look, in terms of biology AND ethics, there is no such thing as higher animals or lower animals. There isn’t any hierarchy for living things. Do refer to the slide above (Taken from BIOL1030 Lecture Notes on Biodiversity and the Environment). So how can any of you say that a human is more superior as compared to a rat? Dogs and cats are much more superior when compared to chickens? No no no. Every single living thing on earth is undergoing evolution, although slow. It is not as if the bacteria are undergoing evolution while the monkeys and the rest are in a static mode. Wrong! It is a misconception! Although it is not very visible, every single living thing is! It is called co-evolution! It is an undeniable fact that humans are more complex than a bacterium, a little worm and a bird. However, it is not right to say that we are of higher level or class. There’s many thing an archaea and a bacterium can do that we cannot. Can we live in sulphur lakes? Can we swim like fishes? Can we become dormant and live on for 100000 years like a bacterium? No, we cannot. Every single organism has their own living strategies. We might be smarter than other animals, and dogs and cats COULD be more intelligent than chickens. But that does not determine what animals can be eaten or what can’t right? If food is based on intelligence, many of the dumbfucks in the world would have been eaten by me already!
We can definitely and absolutely classify animals into their respective phylum, class family and order. BUT, they are still living things, and THAT, is a fact. Unless if eating dogs cause diseases, then it is absolutely fine to do something. Some does, and will be discussed in the next section. If you find eating dogs so disgusting and cruel and evil, don’t eat then. I don’t feel comfortable and will never eat them as well, but I do not agree on what you people are saying.
Diseases and Harm to the Environment
Yes and true. There are reports claiming that eating dogs and cats will spread some kind of weird and random diseases. If animal lovers are using this as an excuse to stop dogs and cats consumption, then I have nothing to say but to AGREE completely. If they are causing harm, of course something must be done. But what if they are not? They will be just like chickens and cows then. Food. If you have the heart to eat a once alive animal, please don’t condemn eating dogs and cats unless if they spread disease. Let’s talk about endangered species then. Yes, some animals are facing extinction and of course it will be disastrous to the ecosystem. For an ecosystem to be stable, biodiversity is a must. Again, it is very technical so I will not elaborate @@ So, are dogs and cats going to be extinct? Nope, far from that. Way too far. “Cats and Dogs, are nowhere in the forseeable future threatened by extinction, so what makes them so different from all the other animals we farm, breed, slaughter every day in the hundreds of thousands for food? “ (Wong 2011). So then. Seriously. If you really love animals, don’t eat them. Simple. I’m just flummoxed and baffled by you people’s(Not saying you la har) hypocrisy. Preposterous!
Note: Please don't be offended k? Just an article of my opinion =)